There is a quote from the film Altered States, in which William Hurt says, "In fact, if I don't strip myself of all this clatter and clutter and ridiculous ritual, I shall go out of my fucking mind."
I can't agree more.
I'm taking a web/tech break. I won't be on Facebook or Twitter for some time to come. Same goes for this blog. They are wasting my time, making me feel like I NEED to check on them, to update, to interact, to, to, to... I can't deal with it anymore. I need a break, to walk away, and figure out what's truly important, and I think this is the first step.
So, if you need to get in touch with me, drop me an email (chris(dot)smith(dot)mailliw(dot)william(at)gmail(dot)com). Or give me a call. I want to keep in touch with everyone--now more than ever, just not via these social constructs.
There are big changes on my horizon as I strip myself of so much ridiculousness that bombards each of us everyday. It will be greatly appreciated if you keep me in your thoughts, prayers, whatever you choose. I will be in your debt.
We all need to periodically assess where our lives our at, the pieces we're trying to put together, the ones we're still trying to find. This is what I'm doing, finding the pieces that fit, the ones that will help me to float rather than drown, the ones that paint a recognizable picture--beautiful or not.
Until then, I wish you the best of days, the most restful of nights, and a wonderful picture of your own.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
As many of you have said to me, and others may have noticed, I've been neglecting my blog. It was as if Gibberish was the very heart and soul of this thing, and once it faded, so too, did my will to ramble here.
In all honesty, I enjoyed blogging: recommending some new thing I found, ranting about the latest film, and shamelessly promoting myself. However, I feel like I need to step back, re-evaluate, and come back ready to rock.
Namely, I've noticed the trend/norm that most writers and other professionals tend to only blog once or twice a month, with that blog being rather lengthy, well-thought, and an actual article rather than a simple upchuck of words. I hope to do the same here. Or at some other blog. I feel like this has been a great ride, but as I started this in hopes of starting my webcomic of the same name, click-track heart. That never came to fruition, and I'm not sure it ever will. I still love the idea of it; I don't have the time.
That being said, I've taken on one too many projects at a time as is. I need to focus, to keep myself from being so scattered, to finish a story/novel to my own personal standards of completion. I can't do that when I'm so spread out.
And on top of all that, I need to find a new outlet of "fun." I've turned everything I love into work: my writing, my art, even my video game playing--always needing to complete a game in its entirety before moving on to the next conquerable conquest. The only thing that hasn't become work is my listening to music, which I do plenty of. Plenty of.
I still plan on writing here from time to time. Things might just be moving around a bit. Perhaps I'll get/start a new blog elsewhere, one that is a little more "professional." Who knows...
For now, updates will be erratic, probably infrequent, and hopefully I can start sorting out the pieces of my life, trimming the edges, sanding down others, and throwing the remainder out with the bathwater.